My complaint of feeling too rushed to get all the meals prepared in a day was really my own fault and not the menus I am using. If I had made the days lunch the night before for dinner, like I was supposed too, the lunch meal would have taken 10 minutes to prepare.
Today's food was all a snap to prepare. This is also a revelation as I have long complained that eating macro means an hours preparation per meal per day. At least. When I worked with Nadine we were making specialized, beautiful food for V.I.P.'s so that is what I am accustomed to in regards to macrobiotics. But these menus I am following now are simple, straightforward and with leftovers only two out of twelve meals have been time consuming.
This is reminding of when I first started meditating. I had done a ten-day Vipassana retreat and we were exhorted, upon our return home, to meditate for two hours a day. One in the morning and one in the evening. At twenty-three years old I miraculously upheld this for three months, then when my attention span, or life, could not withhold such lengths of time I gave the whole thing up in disgust with myself. I completed four more Vipassana retreats with similar results. Unless I could do those two hours a day I just felt I was not really meditating. Many years later when a crisis precipitated me meditating no matter what I gave myself permission to just sit however long I could. I aimed for 30 minutes once a day but if I only managed ten, then so be it. That time, I sat every day for a year and a half. Since then, nothing has really gotten in my way except sometimes me. And similarly, I had to go through the same realization with yoga. At one point, not that long ago, I actually gave up my practice for several months because I was so fed up with the fact that it couldn't look how I wanted it to. Finally, I had to concede that yoga was true love and nothing could keep me away. Even if my practice didn't live up to my expectations, I had to practice. And since then, nothing has gotten in my way.
I do believe that this cleanse might be that watershed moment for me. That macrobiotics can be attuned to my needs for it to be speedier, at times, and that I will not quit in dismay with myself if I cannot cook three gourmet, perfectly balanced amazing meals a day.
Euro spa breakfast today. Some steamed veggies, a quarter cup of toasted sunflower seeds. The menu called for corn on the cob but as that is out of season I did frozen corn and ate it with a little umeboshi paste. I still have a headache but just faintly.
Lunch is simple, leftover lentil soup and cucumber tea sandwiches: thinly sliced, salted cucumbers on whole grain sourdough bread slathered with a homemade tofu mayonnaise and earth balance margarine.
Butter is better. But in fairness, it was rich, unctuous and and fresh at the same time. It tasted good.
Dinner was lovely, leftover rice, miso soup and steamed whitefish. I loved the fish. I put a tablespoon of Umeboshi vinegar which is salty, 1/4 c. of water and thinly sliced leeks in the pan on high heat till it boiled, then put the whitefish in, turned the heat down and put a lid on it. The leeks were a tart and salty condiment on the fish. So simple and so yummy. I will be doing that again.
At three I started to feel tired and thought maybe it was an energy slump but when I got quiet and looked I realized that my sinuses were feeling a lot of pressure and that was making my eyes feel like closing. Tonight, my headache came back but now it's on the other side of my head. Grr. I am going to do Mr. Iyengars sequence in Light on Yoga for headaches.
"Health is a state of complete harmony of the body, mind and spirit. When one is free from physical disabilities and mental distractions, the gates of the soul open." BKS Iyengar